Hi Megha,

I’m really glad to know that this thread has helped you reach a breakthrough, and yes, layers and layers will probably keep revealing themselves. Perhaps you’ll want to look further into what activated the self judgment in the situation with your mother and brother. For instance, was it a sense of not listening to yourself when you felt the right thing to do? Hence in a way, letting yourself down. Or maybe there is something in your relationship with your mother, and the situation that played out with her, that triggered the self judgment? Whenever I find myself in some sort of emotional conflict, especially with family members, there is almost always a thread that goes further back in time, and the scene that takes place at present is so cleverly designed to ‘remind’ me of a past experience, suppressed, forgotten, or simply disregarded. When I finally figure out what goes on backstage of the events acted out, I really marvel at the level of multidimensional intelligence creating these scenarios.

These are just suggestions, but offered to encourage you to inquire further beyond what appears at face value, (which I can see you’re already doing). Since I don’t have much knowledge or experience of schizophrenia, I’m wondering (if you want to share), is it entirely up to family members to decide on medical procedures for the person affected? Is there no part of the responsibility that falls upon the person who is to take the medication? Or is your brother underage?

I also want to thank you for reminding me that ‘people are doing the best they can’. I know this of course, but still it seems I forget it from time to time, and need reminding. Something softened with me as well when I read your sharing. 🙏🏻

Much love to you 🌹

Anastasia