Thank you Open for the reflection. What stands out for me is what you said here:

"In the end, the reality was shattered around the few who'd mastered themselves in the strongly contradictory flows"

It feels poignant in relation to what I wrote about feeling incapable of truly meeting the world... I am afraid it will crush me in some way. It's not been a conscious feeling until recently. One can not transcend anything without a full commitment to the experience including all of the fears, doubts, discomforts it brings and the fact is the physical aspects of me may BE crushed, each of us may endure great emotional upheaval, but no one is preventing it by staying attached to a false sense of security. In fact I am only insuring that I remain attached to this reality by avoiding coming fully into it. The guy in this video certainly had to confront and then not be limited by all of it. I feel a sense of excitement starting to bubble around the idea of being more in the world in a way that truly expresses me. This beautiful lark has been showing up all around me - what's cool about it is that it builds a nest on the ground but soars high into the heavens and always always sings even in flight!

Yes clearly the physical is not solid or fixed and the only true way to thrive is by following the soul in and through it all. The time is now to find myself in it and not of it. It's a funny thing to just realize inside how I have been carrying this around and being self limited by it and now feel, yes I can!!