I agree to your sharing jen. For me the feeling of depression comes with a feeling of disconnection from everything even Openhand. I have observed it serves to surrender any need for connection or expansion and continually soften into the experience. Not at all easy. All trying just leaves me frustrated more. I know the feeling may take a while to process and it helps to just be with it and bring kind acceptance into it.

Yesterday i was just sitting at this hill side gazing at the clouds and birds with the cool breeze. There were a myriads of crows sitting near to me. I have made it a pass time just to raise my hand once in a while making some sound and all of this crows would just fly away altogether. Usually i feel expanded in this place but yesterday i was feeling disconnected and i was contemplating it. And i posed this question " How would my soul work with this feeling right now ? " All of sudden the crows started to fly away altogether without me doing anything. I took the answer as that i don't have to do anything other than what I'm doing right now that is just BEING with the feeling. My attention was also drawn to this new shoots coming off from this huge tree which is very welcome change. Synchronicities are not part of my usual experiences and i have observed they are there more when i pause to pose questions. It was raining very heavily for the past few days and may be the trees and plants had to sustain heavy rain and wind for the new shoots to arise?

Sometimes it also helps to just let go of any expectation how it is supposed to be. Some weeks back i was feeling the same thing and it was put off given that i was feeling expanded before that. This builds up an expectation of how its supposed to be all the time. And i was just trying to relive it and thus pushing it further - very subtle. At one point i gave up and went into what i really wanted. I took some chips and put a movie in my laptop. And it occured to me that i was really surrendering my intention which is like taking a weight,burden from my shoulders. This gives more space for the experiences to flow.