Control sure shows up in a multitude of ways...I notice more and more my escape mechanisms...which is also control. It gets noisy or chaotic and I put on my headphones and disappear from what is happening or eat something really dense and heavy or drink some wine to not feel so sensitive. It feels for me also to be a monumental task to break through this...for me to be in the physicality and not shy away from it, run from it, hide from it, control it, quiet it down. My boys are like constant crashing titans, banging into each other and rolling all over the house for the fun of it and it literally paings me...it's so hard to be in it, not try to change it but also to find right resolution for all of us to live in this house together. It's important for me to allow them to express their rough and tumble side but also to honor what works for me as well. Greatest gift! Right? Perfect scenario to push all my buttons at once haha. Kim - you ARE breaking through it...as we both are...seeing it and working with it. As you said....just keep working with it. Much love, Jen