Hello all,
I have a question that I would like to ask everyone. I will describe my situation first.
I live with my fiancé in our own house. My partner works fulltime but i have been without fulltime work for over two years now. I never learned to think quickly and communicate my point of view due to my mental health before I met my partner. Now I am only beginning to grasp how to form a conversation properly but I still cant put my point accross without forcing it upon the person. This makes it very difficult in the work world and even more difficult at home. I observe everyone around me and feel as if I am standing in the eye of a hurricane. Everyone around me is rushing around wondering why time goes so fast, and I am standing in stillness loving every moment wondering why they cant just stop rushing and take time to smell the flowers. My partner is right in the centre of the kaos, he does everything so fast eating, working, tasks etc. When he has time to relax he doesnt know what to do. I sit on the couch meditating while he walks around the house looking agitated like he cant relax. I want to help him so badly but I have tried in the past and put him off meditation and yoga all together. I have recently had a realisation where my life may be headed if I dont talk to him aboit everything. He likes fast cars, video games, things that make his heart pump with adrenaline. When I met him I was addicted to those things too but my perception on life has changed and those things give me terrible feelings inside. I have been drawn more and more to nature and dont even feel like work is the right place to be. My soul is telling me I need to get away from the city and go find myself in nature. But the trouble is I cant just leave the life I have now, my partner gave up everything he had to be with me and I promised I would get it all back for him. He is completely consumed by the mainstream and media. I feel am torn between my heart and the need to find my true self. My question is how can I explain this to him and what is the best way to approach the situation?

With all my love,

Sam