Thank you for this video and article, Open. I welcome your words as synchronicity supporting me with regard to my current angst around the interplay of willpower and surrender. It's hard to capture in words what I'm experiencing since it feels like I'm swimming in a cauldron of thick, black soup. But sing out I must like the beautiful meadowlark on the right who doesn't worry about who hears or what they think.

I've been feeling intense and overwhelming pain about my attachment to an identity that I once believed was THE foundation of my life's purpose, my reason for living, a way of being and perceiving myself that I held near and dear to my heart, like the religious sacraments I once believed in. That way of being has shattered as the mirror tells its tale. And as the foundation to my world crumbles and disintegrates, I have felt at times like I have no purpose here anymore. I know it's time to let go of this identity, but it feels sacrilegious to do so. As I gradually unravel, it's been challenging to find the will to keep going. What I'm discovering is that willpower sometimes means just getting out of bed each morning and continuing to find and express love and compassion out of the broken pieces in whatever small ways I can.

I hear a higher purpose calling from the mountain top. I'm not galloping high into the hills like a knight in shining armor to embrace my destiny, but I'm still putting one foot in front of the other. And I'm still singing.

x Cathy