I would like to thank you all individually from the bottom of my heart. Each one of you mirrored back to me what I needed to feel so as to see clearer deep within myself. So as to inquire, feel through and UNHOOK! (Its a long post!!)

JANE, do know that I am ETERNALLY grateful to you for holding me: physically, energetically, emotionally and mentally. I fully trusted your directedness, steadiness, upfront-ness, clarity and earthiness as it manifested in the course because that’s also the way I am. As we were walking out the train station I felt this pull to surrender to you – to myself. So I came to you. And there at the bank of the river for the first time in my life I fully surrendered in human arms because it felt totally safe. The moment was pivotal it made a HUGE shift, which is still unfolding. Openhand is honoured to have you in the team.

FIONA, your smile always warms my heart and your supporting energy is felt through everywhere – inner and outer - even when you are not physically there. And when you are physically there, it feels totally right. Like the time you put your hand under my sacrum in support to the unfolding of my ‘activating soulbody’. It felt warm, caring, present and reassuring. With much much gratitude. Your hands hold openhand very gracefully.

OPEN, you were the most powerful catalytic mirror coupled with a loving, supportive and fluid presence. It propelled me to discover more about myself and dig deeper into very painful places inside. It was like my past in this life came up in the present (in the course!) – all of it: the conditions, people, the energy even the physicality – a painful Deja vou, over and over and over again. Yet, there was also deep connection and love and magic and heaven and synchronicity and yearning. Yearning also to go back ‘home’. I love you and push you away at the same time – hey, lets’ not forget: polarity!

TRINITY, the first time I ‘met’ you was through the openhand web and I instantly felt so much affection for you and love. I was a bit surprised by this initially but well, this is how I felt. I shared this with you at the New Year’s course and you gracefully held it. Having felt your energy in this course, I now know why I have this immense affection for you. You are ALWAYS there, no matter what – offering, giving, all of yourself – no matter what. With your amazing food, your upbeat vibe, your humour, your angelic connection, your expressive eyes, your sweet smile, your understanding and encouragement. And here we are in the studio, I have gone through hell on my cushion and it has passed. I open my eyes and see you dancing. Our eyes meet, I see your smile. You dance closer and closer and at some point I raise my arms to you. You take them and help me up from my seat. I give you a hug and its perfect. And it dawned on me: I yearn for someone like you to be by my side – for someone to always be there no matter what. And inquiring…can I offer this to someone else? I don’t think so…my soul dances a different dance…and I then ask: Why do I need someone to always be there? And WHO is always there for me? Having had this kundalini activation I now feel ‘myself’ more, the ONE (pure awareness/soul) is the one who is always there for me – I feel more at peace. Thank you.

MARCELLA, you were - without a doubt - a twin flame energy for me in this course. You are SO beautiful inside and out. Full of love for everyone; a golden light that beams from a deep authentic space. It illuminates, penetrates, releases and fills all of us up. Thank you for receiving my kiss so enthusiastically and openly, also for generously sharing your stories with me till 12.30am! I cherish our moments together. I love you and sing back to you in Jai-Jagdeesh and Tina Malia’s voices – my favourite singers who you brought to life through your own amazing voice.

HEIKE, thank you for your sparkling vibe, your sweetness, sensitivity, attractive vulnerability and caring gestures. I still feel the hug you gave me to warm me up whilst standing by the fire after having come out of the lake. I was shivering intensely…your delicate arms wrapped around me felt HUGE, so huge that the whole world just disappeared for a moment. I was SO honoured to join you lying down inside the sweat lodge because my sacroiliac was so painful in that fixed seated position. When you got anxious at first, I felt it too, when you lied down, I did too, when I drank water you drank too. Just magic. Thank you for the mirror.

MARIJE, your towering loving presence touched me deeply and it manifested exactly when I needed it! I am thankful. I was in a lot of pain and after having resisted the offer to be comforted by someone else, I was now in excruciating pain…and then you came along. You walked with me and took me into your long arms. Resistance slowly melted away and some tears started flowing – it felt good, as it does. Walking to the rhythm, walking and being hugged in the rhythm…thank you.

EDDIE, what a powerful presence. Here I was in another moment of vulnerability when I tend to sink into non-communication. A teenager identity manifesting as I retract into feeling the pain when all it wants to do is express itself. I was intending to be alone and quiet but the universe had other plans. So, we ended up chatting for hours, till 2.30am! Wow! Thank you for the mutual sharing about animals (very important to me), politics, relationships, love, families, fear, shit and all, the whole world. And oh, I am so grateful for giving me your towel after coming out of the lake – I had totally forgotten mine! And for lighting my incense. HUGE hug.

MARIELLE, never have I met someone, either male or female, who had the same way of being as a child and teenager as me! It was spooky! And SO amazing to see an identical mirror. You are always in my heart. You are the little me. I cherish our sharing so much, it brought me to tears! And then another moment, that challenging day we had as a group and after Marcella filled the group/room back with light with her singing voice…you looked at me then spread your arms as if to say ‘let’s hold hands’. I looked at you from across the room and mirrored because it felt totally right. Then the circle was formed. The group was back, together on the way towards harmony. Our energies match, they are one.

STEVEN, your music and singing voice coming from the depths of your soul really moved me every time. Your shamanic vibe resonated with mine and your Vipassanic energy I appreciated. Thank you for sharing with me your challenges and authentic voice. Also for listening with openness and receptivity as we co-created clarity and trust in the process. Your authentic and unique expressions in the group catalysed a profound transformation in all of us: it brought to light what was needed to be brought to light, it ultimately brought the BEST in us all. Wouldn’t have it any other way! Three bows to you.

LISABEL, what a joy to connect with you. Here we are waiting for Alexia to pick us up from the allocated spot, only to find out that we are in the wrong one! And we had the time to dive directly into mutual sharing as if we knew each other for ever! Thank you for your aboriginal shamanic spirit which excited me, your passion for justice and positive change, your vibrancy and fire, your compassion in listening and acting. I remember our dancing together, we danced with our hands, me lying on the floor and you sitting and hugging the cushion. I reached out to you and our fingers touched and connected. They moved multidimensionally to the sound of the music. You were SO beautiful and present. Thank you.

LISSA, my blonde Goddess, what a gift to be with you again! Your unravelling/s moved me every time and your deep sensitivity was a sensory heaven! And here you are sitting under the tree, meditating after the sweat lodge. The sun is shining on you reflecting back the golden light of your hair, face and naked body. I am a body worker and always appreciate beautiful bodies – yours is gorgeous, alluring, a temple of the soul like every ‘body’ is. And here is another moment, we bump into each other walking in the woods and we start talking. It flows naturally, it is insightful and enlightening. We walk on a lively speed – I like it. We share deeply and we connect. We create together, we inquire and I am in ecstasy. Very precious, thank you.

ANATOLY, you are such a BIG personality and such a courageous and outrageous soul! Love it! Every time you shared in the group I would be attentive, anticipating, listening to yet another amazing new world appearing through your words and mouth. Unexpected worlds and sensibilities, magical and daring worlds, rich, adventurous and brave. I always found myself going on a journey with you, feeling what you were feeling, huffing and puffing and sitting and standing and all. Thank you for the rides – totally enjoyed them!

HEATHER, I remember very dearly sharing the bathroom with you on many occasions. It filled me with joy to comb my hair while you were brushing your teeth, to put my face cream while you were showing me your vegan body creams, manoeuvring our bodies in that small space. It was playful and made me smile a lot. I loved seeing your smile every morning and on occasions hear about your hearts’ yearnings –in the bathroom. The bathroom is my favourite room, a sacred space of flow, a space to slow down, a sensual space where we are naked – inner and outer. Thank you for sharing this sacred space with me!

MICHEAL, you are such a caring and kind soul. Thank you for your generous sweet words of encouragement and reassurance. Also, for such an exquisite place you and Marielle have created as a home. The grounds are magical and the lake is unique. I talked with the trees, the flowers, the little baby frogs, the Doctor, the hedgehogs, the birds, the fire and the water. And I became very intimate with all insects. I still have their gifts with me. And of course, thank you for the Greek Zorba dance before the sweat lodge! It brought back memories! Much love.

What a powerful gathering of souls! It all flew as it should. I am still processing. My soulbody doing its thing…And indeed, Anatoly, I too can ‘hear’ the flow more clearly. And separating felt just right (no worries). On my way back home my attention would repetitively drop on the number 22. I couldn’t understand why. Thank you Fiona for answering this one with your post. And many more moments of flow…how beautiful to live this way all the time. I feel new connections will manifest in Glastonbury when I move there… shamanic tantrism speaks to me, exciting!

Tashi delek to all.
(Tibetan for ‘good luck be with you’ or ‘blessings and good luck’)